A Promise Remembered . . . 

. . . A Secret Shared

by John E Budzinski

© 1990


I have always followed the philosophy that you have to get older and bigger, and you must take on a more mature and adult like image as age plays its mischievous games with you. But, nowhere is it written that you have to grow up in the process.

Maybe that is why I have always enjoyed talking with young children. They are a lot smarter than we give them credit for, and, at times, they can spout forth the greatest of wisdom. You just have to talk to them as little people rather than little kids.

Jennifer's niece, Melanie, and I had such a talk some time ago, and I remember it as it were yesterday.

I was in the living room flipping through a magazine as I waited for Jenny to get ready for our date. Melanie came in from playing with her sisters and sat next to me. She was filled with the giggles and the look in her eyes told me I should be wary of a little girl with pranks in her eyes.

She kept looking at me, and, as looked at her she would turn quickly away and cover her face in peek-a-boo fashion. It took a few minutes, but, I finally persuaded her to tell me what it was that was so funny.

"Are you and Aunt Jenny getting married?!", she asked in a voice that was more accusatory than inquisitive.

After I regained my composure from a moment of shock at her question, I asked her, "Why do you think we are getting married?"

"I saw you kissing her!!", her giggles becoming more uncontrollable.

I wasn't prepared for such a conversation with a eight year old girl and I started to worry about the direction this conversation may end up taking. As I turned away from her to try and think of some sly and artful way to change the subject, Melanie, sensing my nervous state, changed it for me.

"Don't worry John Boy, I won't tell anyone. I can keep a secret."

I looked down at Mel as I tried to keep a roaring smile from escaping. This little munchkin was making me fall madly head-over-heals in like with her. The roaring smile teamed up with a silly laugh and found it's way out.

I brushed the hair out of her eyes and said, "So you can keep a secret can you!?", as I tickled her.

"Sure! Don't worry!", she said, hearing her sisters call her as she got up and quickly ran outside.

I hadn't heard from Jennifer for six or seven weeks, a very unusual thing for my letter writing fiend of a friend. So, when her letter came I got very excited. I always enjoy getting letters from friends. Stories about new jobs, new homes, promotions, trips, and the kids fill them. Then, every so often, in the midst of all the good cheer comes some news that freezes you.

The smile I had when I opened Jenny's letter disappeared into disbelief and shock as I read it. "I'm sorry I haven't written in a while, but, things have been kind of crazy here. Melanie was killed in a car crash and..."

The letter started to shake. I couldn't swallow. My eyes glazed over. I didn't want to believe what I read. I though of Melanie's mother and father, and her three sisters. I thought of Jennifer and her family. I thought of my own two nieces.

There is so much happening in the world today to occupy the mind of a writer. The events in Eastern Europe and the Soviet Union are daily headlines. There are elections in Japan and Central America, crazy weather in California and Georgia, politicians resigning in Israel, and of course, there is the baseball strike.

Yet, with all this going on, my mind is trying to make some sense out of why an eighteen year old girl has to die. I remember family and friends and the events and occasions we have shared that have shaped our lives. We now have one more to add to the list.

I remember Melanie and the secret I shared with my young friend.

 


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